I've been thinking a lot about what life will be like when you get here: long nights, sore body, exhaustion, constant worry. But those things aren't really that scary when I think about how long I've waited for you to be in my life. What will I do with the all of the overwhelming love that will suddenly come into my life when you're born? Will you have kirk's eyelashes? What about my pale force skin? JK We know you're going to be a little creamy, pasty babe. I think about all the firsts your dad and I get to experience with you and I just about die of excitement. I can't wait to hold you and rock you to sleep. I can't wait to comfort you when you don't feel good, read you books about airplanes,animals and numbers, tell you stories and watch Disney movies. I can't wait for your first gummy smile and your first laugh. I hope it's not as loud and obnoxious as mine :) Will you be a good sleeper or will we struggle for every hour we get? I can't wait to see your "sleepy wake up from a nap" face. That is my favorite thing of all babies besides baby buns.
I think about what kind of mom I'll be and whether I'll still be able to jam to Beyonce in the car with you in tow or whether I'll be too worried about keeping it quiet for you to sleep. How will I handle the day I have to leave you and go back to work? How will I handle your first day of school? Will I be super strict, or will I bend the rules when your dad's not around? ;) Will we be best buds or will you be a daddy's girl? What will your personality be like? Will you have allergies that make us cut cheese and peanut butter from our family diet? Will you and Riggy be best friends?
We are getting your room ready for you. It's a little while till you're here but I can't wait anymore - the room has got to come together STAT. Everything is being put together with the thought of what's best for you. Every time I walk by your room I think of when you'll be in there and I can go in and watch you sleep. You, my precious, faceless child who I love more than anything already.
Nothing I've read or been told can properly prepare me for your arrival (mentally or physically). But although I may not know exactly what to expect, my mindset is ready. I can't wait to be your momma. Our family is ready for you to be here and we're doing all we can do to make sure you're healthy, happy, and extremely loved no matter what. I think it's really fitting for you to be my first born in November, the month of thanks. I could not be more thankful to be in this position, for you, for your dad, for your extended family who have already supported (and spoiled) you so much. Our love grows infinitely more for you every day which amazes me more than I can even put into words....how much you are loved when I don't even know you at all.
26 weeks down, 14 to go!
